It’s been almost two weeks since Jesus and I met at the sycamore tree and I realized something today. Although I don’t crave sweets, junk, sodas, etc. like I once did, I still seem to gravitate toward junky kinds of foods. But wait, I thought that stronghold had been broken? I met Jesus at the bottom of the tree, right? So I kinda had to check back in with God on that. Sort of a hey God, I know You said the stronghold was broken, but I’m still having a bit of a problem in that same area. I’m kinda confused. This was a perfect opportunity for Satan to start messing with my head…to start filling my thoughts with lies about how God didn’t really heal me after all. But sweet sweet Jesus got in there first with this little nugget:
Jenny, a stronghold is something you do because you can’t stop thinking about it.
A habit is something you do without thinking about it.
There is a huge difference.
I had to do an aerial view of this past couple of weeks of my life and really look hard at the way I’d been functioning where food is concerned. And here’s what I found…
The stronghold that food had over me has been broken for sure…the walls have come down and the rubble is being taking away piece by piece each day. I can see a difference in what I desire to eat…in my attachment to food. I pass by the candy isle at the grocery store without much effort anymore. In fact, each time it is easier and easier. The remnants of the chocolate cake from my son’s birthday party have been in my refrigerator for right at a week now and I have barely given it a second glance.
I’m finding that where I get a little jammed up is when I go into habit mode at meal time or snack time. Sometimes I’m not hungry…just on auto-pilot. You know what I mean? Just eating without thinking. But the times that I am hungry, I still seem to reach for the things that I would have previously reached for. Not really because I want them, but mostly because they are e-a-s-y. It’s much easier to grab a handful of crackers than it is to peel an apple. It’s much quicker to just shoot through a drive through somewhere than it is to go home and actually fix something. I’m finding that if I do an honest assessment of those moments when I feel pulled towards a past craving, it’s almost always not really a craving at all as much as it is a habit or well, really just pure laziness on my part if I’m painfully honest.
And you know, this applies in all aspects of our lives…not necessarily just with food. We get caught into a rut of habits and without even thinking, we just continue to stay in habit mode. We can even fall into an habitual way of thinking about ourselves – we’ll never be better, we’ll never success at this or that, we aren’t capable of better. Habits. How long do we walk around healed of a certain problem or issue in our lives but allow ourselves to continue in bondage to the habit?
Well, it’s time to wake up…and I’m talking to myself as much as anybody. Time to be intentional about living in victory instead of continuing to trudge around the same battlefield long after the battle’s been won. Time to stop being led by the habits of broken strongholds. I’m fixing my eyes on the One my soul craves.
Oh and by the way…I know my word. I’ll tell you about it tomorrow.