Alright, I have my word for this year and would love to share it with you as promised. But first, just a few other things. (Well, I can’t just bust out there with the word. I’ve got to build up to it, right?)
I’ve had so many words floating around in my head this week, and although they were all great words, none of them really felt like “the word.” I couldn’t really say that I’d felt God leading me to settle on any one of them, although I did feel like He meant for them to be included as part of my word.
One word that I kept coming back to was focus. As you may have already previously read, I struggle with focusing on one thing. In fact, I often struggle with focusing on anything. And when I do, it would seem that often I’m focusing on the wrong things. I focus too much on my shortcomings, on my weight, on all the things that I haven’t done with my life. My focus should be only on Christ, but often my focus drifts elsewhere. If I could just focus on Him, all those places where I fall short would fall into place right? But somehow focus just didn’t stick.
Then there was obedience. Also a great word. Man if only I could just be obedient to God’s call on my life. Obedient to His word. I would change so many things about my life if I would just do what He tells me to do all the time. If I would just listen to Him when he speaks, wow what a difference it would make! But somehow obedience just didn’t click either. Like there was more than just that.
The it was His. As in, I am His, everything I have is His, my life is His. If I could remember that I belong to Him, it would change my whole outlook on who I am and why I’m here. If I could just see that everything I have belongs to Him and is only in my possession because He blessed me with it, then I’d surely be a much better steward of it all. But even in the realization that I belong to Him, I still didn’t hear Him say “YES that’s your word!” In fact, what He said was, “YES, you are mine ~ never forget that…but keep digging deeper.”
I met with my friend, Mandi, for coffee and a Jesus chat which we are found doing quite often and I was telling her about the whole one word deal and she started grinning. “I know what word I’d give you if it was up to me,” she says, “but I don’t want to influence you. I want it to be yours.” Well after a bit of coaxing, I finally got it out of her…commitment. (Haha Susan! There’s yours!) Mandi knows me well, and certainly picked a good word for me and although that one felt like it was close, it wasn’t quite there. Like it was another descriptive underneath the heading but still not quite the one. But she kept talking and started drawing me this diagram (which I wish I could figure out how to show you on this thing) that someone else had shared with her and explaining how if our lives were measured by this needle and that when that needle was straight up it would mean that we were right in line with Jesus…right on point. And then she started telling me how Satan doesn’t knock our needle completely over but just kinda pulls us off the mark by just a little bit and so then we are fighting and fighting that battle there, but if we could just see that all we need to do is keep ourselves aligned with God, then….she lost me there because I’d heard what I’d been waiting to hear.
That was it! Aligned. Now, I can’t say I knew exactly what it meant and still realize that there are many facets to it that God will reveal to me over the course of the rest of this year, but here’s what I know for now:
I can’t do anything, overcome anything, be anything without Him. And unless my spirit is aligned with His, even in my best efforts I will still be off the mark. I can’t focus on anything if I haven’t first focused on Him. I don’t have the strength to commit and I don’t have the desire to be obedient if I’m not relying on Him for both strength and desire. And although I will be His for all eternity, He has a calling on my life that I can only know by spending time with Him. And here’s about where I picked back up with Mandi.
Get in the Word. Know the Word. Apply the Word. Meditate on the Word. Hide the Word in our hearts. How can we be aligned if we don’t know what to be in line with? Then she gave me this verse from one of Paul’s letters:
Finally, brothers and sisters,
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable
—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—
think about such things.
Jesus is the Word made flesh. He is true, noble and right. He is pure, love and admirable. He is excellent and praiseworthy. He is my True North.
There’s more to share and I will as God is laying it out bit by bit.
Precious Father, align my spirit with Yours. Then everything else will fall into place.