Unbecoming

Well, January is almost over and I feel like it just started.  I decided after all the starts and stops this month with not one, but two rounds of snow and a ridiculous number of snow days for my little one, I’ll just start my “New Year” in February.

And since February is right around the corner, I thought I’d share my word with you.  I’m sure you’re probably familiar with the One Word idea.  Instead of making a bunch of resolutions, which I already said I wasn’t going to do, you prayerfully seek out one word that will set the tone for your year to come.  Last year, I don’t think I actually had one particular word, but rather several phrases.  But this year, there has been one word that keeps settling into my heart.

Unbecoming.

I first saw it in a Facebook post from a page I follow:

unbecoming

Unbecoming just stuck in my head.  For so much of my life, I have tried to be this or be that.  Tried to make myself into somebody that I thought people would like.  Tried to fit this mold or that one.  Tried to be pleasing.  And the worst part is that with all my efforts to become this or become that, I still never felt like I fit in anywhere.

Maybe it was because I was too busy trying to be things that I’m not supposed to be.

So this year is going to be about unbecoming.  About taking off all the layers of stuff that’s just not supposed to be there.  About unbecoming the perfect wife and mother….because I’ll never be perfect.  I’m releasing myself from that.  About unbecoming the perfect Christian…because I’ll never be that either.  I’m giving myself grace there.  About unbecoming the funniest person or the thinnest person or the best writer or whatever else and give myself space to find out who I am underneath all these layers.

I’m giving myself the freedom to not have to fit anybody’s mold, but rather to allow God to shape me.  I feel like I have already been walking through a season of removing or “unbecoming” as it were…it’s just only recently I think that I’ve really begun to recognize it as season of undoing.  It has been a hard season, but I think I’m beginning to understand that God has been walking me through the process of unbecoming – before I even had a word for it.  I believe His intention has been and continues to be to clear away all the clutter and start fresh.  I’ve said for so long how much sometimes I wish I could just erase everything I knew about God and just start from scratch.  To learn Him from the beginning without all the “churchy” baggage that I’ve picked up along the way.

So that’s my word and my prayer for this year…

Lord, give me perseverance and courage to unbecome all the things that aren’t the me you would have me to be.  And in the unbecoming, I pray that all the things that keep me tangled up and tied down would all fall away and I would fall in love with you all over again.

 

Did you have a “One Word” for this year that you’d like to share?  I’d love to hear it!

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1 word. 365 days.

Lord, I don’t want to float through my day, barely aware of You.

I never want You to be an afterthought.

That’s my prayer for this year.

And the response of God was,

Be intentional.

And I realize just how little intent I’ve had.  A million thoughts and ideas find their way in and out of my mind.

Wishes wished to be more like her because she knows her Bible so well.

A heart’s desire to hear from God like he does.

An ache to spend time alone in the quiet with the Lover like she does.

But none of that just…happens.

You don’t accidentally learn scripture.

You don’t build a relationship in passing.

You don’t escape to the quiet without moving away from the noise.

Be intentional.

Resolve to do…and then do.

I will put one foot in front of the other and follow along behind the Master…on purpose.

I will seek You out with everything in me.

I will fix my eyes on You, God.

My faith is intentional.

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It’s not about resolutions.

It’s not about “doing” better or “being” better.

It’s just one word.

But not just any word.

It’s your word.

The List

Alright well it’s that time of year….THE LIST!!!!  Resolutions for things I will do different this upcoming year.  Honestly I don’t know why I ever make a “list” because I never do what I say I’m going to do, but maybe if I share my list with you, it will make me more likely to at least acknowledge it from time to time.  Feel free to periodically hold me accountable.  Here goes…

1.  I will finish something.  I am the world’s worst procrastinator and the world’s best at losing interest in something.  I have been doing an honest assessment of myself recently and have found that I am in fact all talk.  I have lots of great ideas, I just have no follow through.  Yes…this year, I will finish something.

2.  I will be more consistent with my blog.  I started out strong, as always, but then my posts became less and less regular and further and further apart (see #1).  I love blogging.  I will not quit.  I will not give up.  I will blog.  It’s a matter of discipline.

3.  I will not buy any more books until I read the ones I have.  Nevermind.  That’s a total fallacy.  Won’t happen.  Next…

4.   I will lose weight.  I will eat better and exercise.  I will make healthier choices.  My children follow my lead and if I’m making poor health-related choices, they probably will as well.  If Jesus were here in the flesh to visit for a week, would I serve dinner on paper plates and make Him sleep on the floor?  Would I not clean the house from top to bottom before He got here?   Wouldn’t I want my home to look nice for Him?  Of course.  So why do I offer Him a flabby temple (i.e. – my body) in which to dwell.  He deserves better than that.

5.  I will spend less time learning about God and more time getting to know God.  I love learning about God, about the time in which Jesus lived, about Jewish traditions, about word studies of the Hebrew language…but I have a terrible habit of allowing that to consume more of my time than just hanging out with God.  I want to know more about HIM.  I want to learn how to listen more and talk less. 

I think I’ll stop there for now.  I’m sure I’ll be adding more to the list in the new few days.  Happy New Year!