On Fridays, I have the pleasure of linking up with Gypsy Mama and all the other fabulous 5MF bloggers! The idea is to just write for five minutes straight….no editing, no back-tracking, no tweaking.
This week’s topic: Real
When you’re done here, be sure to head over the Lisa Jo’s page and have a read over some other 5MF contributions!
Honestly, this word made my breath catch in my throat.
This one small word…but such a big struggle for me sometimes.
Be real. I just want to be real with you.
But how do I know what that is?
I wear so many masks. Put up fronts. Overuse the word “fine.”
So where is real? How can I find the real me? The one that is what she is because that’s who she is. Not the me that so-and-so thinks I should be. Not the me that I think everybody will like the most. Not the trendy me. Not the ultra-Christian me. Not the “I have it all together me.”
Can I be real with you and you still like me? And really should that matter all that much? Wouldn’t I want to just be who I am without any bells and whistles to impress anyone?
Maybe. But being the real me could be a scary thing.
The me who forgets to pray sometimes. The me who can’t keep up with the laundry and the dishes to save my life. The me who on the inside gets jealous of what others have. The me who doesn’t always love others properly. The me who truly has no desire at all to go on a mission trip.
Maybe you’d be less impressed with the real me. But then, if I am that me…the real me…with you, does that set you free to be the real you with me?